so I have finally come to a realization (after many years)
that I am not a blog writer. :(
Oh well. Does the world really need another blogger anyway :)
I have decided not to totally give up on the blogging way, but instead will do my best to share a picture everyday of something Joyous . I am doing this for me as a mental motivation. I am doing it to keep me aware that there is more then me here in my everyday. I am doing this to give myself something of Joy to remind that she is with me always, even when I do not feel her.